eternity seems so long now, without you by my side. how humans entire lives are filled with all this pain, darkness, lonliness. i shudder to think of an eternity, condemned and unforgiven by you. millenia, just a few decades ago would feel like grains of sand in an hourglass. millenia, would feel as if drops of rain on my face trailing behind my non-existant tears. now, my endless journey on this forsaken land of redeeming weekness is as futile as my hope that. . . you will breathe again. i press my fist to my mouth. teeth biting into cold icy skin. i feel the urge to scream abate. . . i close my eyes to blind myself of blurry vision and. . . the sight of your gorgeous body, never to rise again. Heaven and Hell knows how to choose their punishments, choosing the one that would hurt me the most. you warned me, told me of my future. . . what a joke, i have no future now. no more you, you no more= an unending life without you. i guess you warned me, but you didn't tell me that it would hurt so much! so, i grasp at crisp white sheets. my knuckles white with how tight i hold you as if i could save you from this undeniable destiny. i think you might say that i'm too late, that i've seen you fall, and that i saw the rest of eternity. a black light, a doomed world, condemned souls, lost lives, and in the center of it all? an empty heart. i will bring an armageddon just to rid myself of this cursed infinity with its endless loops and this non-life. . . without you