times have changed. now that it has, he talks to me less and less now, just a little hi sometimes, a "watsup?" now and then, and in between, "i love you's". but that's it. we talked more back then, like almost everyday after school, and on weekends too. i'd waste my load cos of texting him, i don't mind cos i'm using my load on him and not some other person.

he doesn't have that much time for me anymore, he used to stop what he was doing to be with me, to talk to me, just stay with me only. it kills me to see him with her more than me, it kills me to see my world in the hands of another girl, but i won't let him know that, cos he will just fight me, he'll just say i'm being jealous. of course i am, it's a normal reaction you know. but i've improved.

and i'm sure there's many more changes that he has made without him knowing, but i won't tell it here anymore, those two are just more important to me, for i need him more and more everyday, and the problem is that he doesn't seem to notice that=( i truly miss those times when he was always with me, always talks to me, now it feels like i'm "sharing" him with everyone else, and by "everyone", i mean girls, he's too sweet around them but he can't be romantic with me anymore... what's happening? i guess i shouldn't complain, i'd just have to adjust to everything again, even though that would hurt me a bit, that's ok, cos you know why? i love him, and i'd do anything to make him happy, even though it might affect me, so here i go, understanding why he might not talk to me less and less, here i go, understanding why he might not have time for me, here i go, realizing why he might not be that romantic anymore, and lastly, here i go... sharing the guy i so deeply love with those other girls, and i'll just watch as my world falls into their hands instead of mine, watch my world have fun with them, and all i'll do is watch and be happy for him... and if i'm lucky, he'd allow me to be in his world the way he allows them to be in his.