i cried today. no one knew why. i was being pressured and the only way i could get it out of me was to cry. and on top of that i had a problem and stephen couldn't be serious for one minute. he was being insensitive to how i feel now. i tell him my prob and all he does is laugh about it. i don't think that's funny... don't you? sure, i guess he's trying to cheer me up, make me feel better and all, but i just wanted him to listen to me without having to laugh. does he think my problems are funny? could be. i don't laugh at his problems so why does he laugh at me?

i ate lunch somewhere today. no one knows where. i didn't even feel like conversing with anyone. i wanted to talk to stephen, but i changed my mind. i just want him to take all my problems away for just a moment so i'd be free of all problems... but no, he might laugh, therefore i am forced to talk about it to my probs to my friends, but they might not understand. so i just keep it to myself and figure it out on my own. don't tell me i didn't try though. when i'm with stephen, he seems to take my worries and problems away even though he couldn't take them away for good, but for that one moment, i feel that he could. i wanna feel that way again whenever i tell him my problems, but now he just laughs and i feel worse than before... i wish he's understand... or at least try to...


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