i haven't been writing here for awhile. my apologies. anyway... i'm always down, depressed, mad, etc. does everyone have to put me down? even my own friends who i THOUGHT were my friends at school seem to put me down, and get this, they put me down all because of stupid rumors they hear. can't you guys stop it? this is not the first time, and it probably won't be the LAST time i will say this, but, for your sake i will say it again. RUMORS ARE NOT TRUE. and the more you spread it, you become caught in a web full of lies... in this, "web", did you check to see if YOUR other friends are caught in it to? yes, they are, aren't they? cos they started that shit rumor! you are my friends you are there to lift me up and NOT drag me down, and keep me in the dirt til i have no more room to breathe anymore! why do you do this? you guys are my friends, or at least i thought you guys are... how could you? how DARE you! and you even dragged my own boyfriend into believing you guys!! so ok, we went to EK that time, i did tell stephen i was going with kheem, anj, etc, some things happened that wasn't supposed to happen, but WE DID NOT MAKE OUT! i am not that kind of person to do that behind my BOYFRIEND's back! if you do believe that, then you do NOT know me. and to think you guys were my friends? and you all know this isn't the first rumor about me that you believed, no it isn't, remember the "flirting" rumor? yes i still remember that, how could i? you people nearly drained the life out of me, and this one? you guys stabbed me to death and left me bleeding... even my own boyfriend believed his BESTFRIEND rather than me, you guys need to get your fucking FACTS right... you guys weren't even there at ek, so how the hell would you know if we did make out? you guys never learn do you, and you know dan, he makes shit up! how many times?? and still you choose to believe him more than me? is something wrong with me? if there is please! tell me! i'd have to change again! you guys left me miserable when the flirting rumor began... and to think that was last year... now i'd have to suck it up and live my life being incomplete. now you know rumors can really "kill" a person, you should know, I'M your living PROOF... think before you talk... if you don't wanna feel guilty or hurt anybody... use your coconut! it's there for a reason!! i have nothing more to say.. and don't think i'm fully over it cos i smile everyday, well, i'm not, i hate seeing my friends everyday and knowing what they do to me... it just isn't right. goodbye.