do you know how painful it is when your own friends feel awkward around you? if not, then you wouldn't know how i feel. i thought they were my friends, friends who enjoys each others company even when you're with your bf/gf... they didn't want me included all because they know i get "jealous" when i see other girls hanging around my guy... if i was included, i wouldn't have to be jealous, why would i? i'm with him aren't i? why do they have to feel awkward? why?! is it because all his attention is with me and not them? i would think he'd give them attention, too, not just only me, after all, WE are hanging out, it's not just the two of us, two of our friends, or so i thought they were, are there as well. i didn't wanna become this, a jealous girlfriend, i didn't wanna be "tagged" as his jealous girlfriend, but what can i do? is it my fault i'm with a guy who all the girls wanna be with? i have to be careful, protective, in the end they understand that as just being jealous. i hate what i've become, i know it's not what he wants, for all i know it's not what everyone wants... it's like i'm being watched, judged for every wrong move i make, i hate feeling that way, it makes me think everyone hates me, or find something to hate about me, do they know what they're doing to me?! doubt that. every day i come home after school, and you know what i do? i go to the comforts of my room and cry. cry for another day gone bad all because i felt a bit jealous, or made him be a bit mad at me, for arguing about some stupid thing... i cry cos i don't wanna be jealous anymore, i don't wanna keep him from doing stuff all because it would make me jealous... let him go out more with his other girl friends, watch a movie with them, let them have my bf for a day! i won't get jealous... i'll show them i won't get jealous... let them have my world, go ahead... I WON'T GET JEALOUS
i'll just regret it all later
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don't you just hate it when they do that? it's like you're trying to impress the people who are "judging" you with whatever you do, i totally hate it, and i bet you feel all wrong or messed up inside? that's exactly how i feel, you're not alone on this one, ok? you go girl! show those "friends" of yours (and your guy) you can do it!!
i'm on your side honey;)
phew! i'm not alone!!! i thought i was for a minute or so... and that's how i feel as well T_T i have to admit though, i hate feeling that way, but i'll show them, i'll show ALL of them!! thanks a bunch!:) i really appreciate it
:)
don't you worry, you can do it! haha rob schneider rocks! haha oh, your blog rocks
janeena's right ger.
and you've got a point as well, well, to start, they ARE you're friends and shouldn't feel that way towards you, even though you're around your bf... and your bf should've wanted you to come, it's an opportunity for you to be with each other!! why let that chance go right?? anyway... it's totally normal to feel jealous
and they shouldn't name people!
haha:)
keep that chin up,
jake
right on, jake!! haha (i'm so totally right=P)
awww... thanks you guys!! and thank YOU jake:) thanks thanks A LOT!!!
♥
uh..sori? im the guy that all the girls wana be with?..kewl..ddnt know that..haha....at least i know how u really feel...rli sori hon..iflou
oh so you're the guy eh? dude... it's not that really "cool" if you're the guy that supposedly all the girls wanna be with, not cool at all, it can go to your head and you can use that advantage and you can hurt yo gurl... tsk tsk... be careful dude...
have you ever thought that he went "out" with his girls, without you, was because he wanted to have them for himself? and maybe with you there, he couldn't do, ahem, "anything" cos you're there, if you know what i mean... think about it
good luck.
~OR~
maybe he doesn't want you.
to be jealous or not to be jealous. it's always a choice. to be jealous is to suffer from your own thoughts; it is to suffer from doubt, through tears, through screams. it's hard to release it all because it's merely a choice, and choices can be constant.
maybe its because you love him.. it most probably is, i presume. but know this: love is sacrificial. sacrifice anything for the one you love. sacrifice your time with him just to know he's happy. love is making sure that he's happy, even when you'd feel down because of what you do to make him feel that way.. don't think about your happiness or the fact that he has to please you too. well, of course he does.. but.. you love him, dont you? make him happy. no matter what. don't you want to see him happy? love him with a love far greater than love.
you take care now :)
ok....
thanks...
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