i have a tremendous problem... well no, not really, just a small problem i guess... in all my past relationships, not once have i been told that i was a PAIN in the neck to my guy, not once, well, until now... that sorta hurts to know that i am some sort of "pain" to the guy i love and who loves me back. it all started like yesterday when we were walking from school to my friends house to hang, it was blistering hot and i was soo not in the right attire, because we were wearing our school uniform, and the girls wear more layers of uniform than the guys, so hear me out, it was blistering hot and it was around 1p.m. and we were out there in the heat of the sun, and i was wearing my uniform, who wouldn't complain? if that was the case i would've taken off my fucking uniform! but im not stupid, so anyways, we were walking right? i told him it was freaking hot and i felt like i was gonna faint, we kept stopping to every shade we saw and i was wearing HEALS for crying out loud, tell me who wouldn't want to be in my place? but anyway, we kept going, now i was told that my friends house was NEAR to where our school was, but unfortunately it wasn't! it felt like forever til we finally got to his house, my neck and head was burning and i really needed water... do you know the feeling when your inside are like heating up? or that at the back of your neck is really hot? that's how i felt... anyway... of course i loved - yes LOVED - the ahem, "short" walking distance (wink) to his house cos it meant being with pen, but getting there was a biggy for me. #1 it was hot, #2 i was wearing my uniform with many layers, #3 i had heals... but i didn't want that to get to me cos i wanted to go over there in the first place... but unfortunately it did and that's where pen said in his blog (www.infallibleforgiveness.blogspot.com) that i was a pain in the neck:'( when i first read it, i thought, ok, no big, but when i read it again just to make sure, i started thinking that it wasn't ok that i was called "a pain in the neck" and the thing that annoys me, well not annoy, that's the wrong word... the thing that bothers me is that i never considered him as a PAIN in my neck and yet here he is telling other readers that i am... im embarassed of myself and at the same time a bit hurt... he could have told me to stop it and just wait a few more minutes til we got to my friends house, i would've heard the seriousness in his voice... but no... he just said i was a pain in his neck... and for once... i do not know what i should do... yeah... i don't know if i should write a poem... listen to depressing songs... whatever...