Wee! It's past Christmas and New Year's! Belated!! Another "good" year has passed and it's now January 4, 2006! Sorry you guys for not updating for so long... you see, I've been busy falling in love, "breaking" up and falling in love over again with the greatest man ever, (aside from my dad [wink] and God) as you all know, well, as some of you know, his name is ♥ Stephen Reyes ♥ and on Jan 2, 2006, at exactly 3:14 p.m., he asked me to be his girlfriend! For so long I've waited for him to make his move, and I know some of you have been endlessly encouraging me that I'm making the right decision of waiting for him, and you guys are right!=) Anyway, last tuesday was his move! And like I said, it was all worth it, that Stephen is worth waiting for and I knew I was right, ever since I told him I'd wait, and to convince myself to wait, I had to argue with, well, me, I know this sounds crazy, but I had to wait 5 years for Nathan right? Well my other side got scared that that will happen to me again but I reassured myself over and over again, that I'm making the right decision of waiting, and I'm right (as usual haha;) )

I'm soo happy! He asked me in a mall on some stairs, I thought, I mean I pictured him asking me in a better place with a speech or somethin, but whotever, he asked anyway=) hmmm... I don't know whot to say... (I want a British accent...) God, I love him so much... I really do... at least he asked me, unlike Angelo (aother story), he was just... nothing... he never asked me period. whot made him not ask me? I don't know and neither do I care cos I'm with Stephen now, nothing else matters anymore... at least I don't have to wait anymore haha :D Now my fear is breaking up :( I don't want that to ever happen, but I said that to my past err ex's and still we ended up breaking up, I said that to Angelo... well we weren't really "together" together, but whotever, I said this to Stephen... and... were gonna get married! bwahaha:) oh yeah, we talked about marriage last Tuesday, like where were gonna get married, like on some yacht, on a hill, in a Church, a garden... hmm that would be nice, then off to our honeymoon... haha! that reminds me, "your honey" i said, and then he replied, "your moon!" haha we were laughing so hard that time.

I think the thing that was missing in all of my past relationships wos whot me and Stephen have going on now... friendship:) I mean, I don't know I can't really explain this, but I guess we just don't love each other, were like the best of friends, and we bagan that way too, but I guess the others were just... about love, I mean whenever I go out with Stephen, were always laughing, making fun of each other, making jokes, but the other guys I've been, they look so serious about going out and stuff, like I said I can't explain, but it's there... and maybe it's chemistry too haha.

I don't know whot I'll do without him in my life. For sure I'll blame myself for losing him and for finding another guy after I lost him... nevermind about me being the last girl Nathan wos to share his life with, I want to be Stephen's last girl, it's he that I want to share my whole life with now and nobody else... I'll do anything and everything for this relationship to last until he asks me to marry him, it seems like a hard and probably tough task to do, but I'm willing to do it. See how much he means to me? See how special he is to me? I wouldn't be doing this if he wasn't. I think we can make it, I really do, I mean I've waited about 5 months right? Then doing this won't be a problem, and if we work together, both of us, I'll be saying "I do" to the same guy I said "yes" to in noo time... no matter the years, and even if he'd go away for college in the States, which is kinda sad, not to mention depressin:'(

*I promise that I will wait for him until he comes back and won't have ANY guy when he's gone, no I WON'T. I promise to stick with him, love him too, no matter the distance.*

I'm prepared for whot's to come, and missing him badly will take place, but I say again, it will be ALL worth it when he comes back and asks me to marry him :) hehe... this is super long, oh well :) til next time! belated Happy Christmas and Merry New Year!