hello. . . wtf? so ok. . . yesterday, my best friend, aka, kheem, left for the States, it was so sad to see her go, the last message i got was when she was boarding, i wish i kept it, but this is what i remembered: "boarding na='( waaa! im going to miss you sobra! work hard sa studies mo ha?? sana mag honor roll ka. mwah take care." then i replied as fast as i could, hoping she'd receive my message before it was too late, and i said "='( im going to miss you too sobra! i'll try and make it to the honor roll, for you. . . ok, ingat, enojoy your vacation. . . luvyew bff=] i'll always be with you, through the rex cd's" i started to cry then, and before i knew it, it was pouring hard! then i instantly prayed to God to giude their flight, and make it to the other side ok. . . i miss her. . . if only she knew. . . im gonna be lonely for the rest of the week w/o her, although i have pen, padua, and uh maybe chris. . . it won't be the same. . . speaking of pen. . . i changed my mind, i mean about waiting, i will still, but im not gonna hurt while doing so, it's easy now that i've thought about it, im not gonna let a few more years get in the way. . . if i have to wait i will and i shall. . . and. . . im not going to complain. . . yeah, ive been complaining. . . but now i won't, i love him and will wait. . . just to make that clear hehe. . . evryone'e leaving. . . well not now. . . probably soon. . . why?? it just sad, the ones i love will leave me and go elsewhere, just leave me behind. . . pen will leave me soon. . . when he goes away for college in the. . . states. . . i hate it, and i have to live with it. . . the sad truth, i cried on my bed when he told me through text. . . he's gonna leave me behind, i won't be able to see him again, that's what i thought on my bed. . . dear Lord why?? well, he said that he'd come back every year. . . but it's not enough! waaah='( he also said he needs to think about his future and that he cares about it, and well, maybe i should let him go for those few years in the states, and if i do end up going to college here, i won't let ANY man in my life, cos i wanna be with pen, and only him, and if i go there in the states for college, were gonna get an apartment and live together! God that would be sweet, aww he could take care of me, and vice versa. . . i WISH that would happen, then i wouldn't have to worry if he's gonna fall for another girl, that's scary. . .



>>> pen, just so you know,which you already do, i love you, i always will.<3